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Fun times roaming the streets of Hyde Park, Chicago, as well as the summer and holiday grind of Vero Beach, Florida.

Friday, December 28, 2007

back in chitown

We knew the glorious Vero days wouldn't last long, and that's probably a good thing. Still, now I'm back in my good old Kimbark apartment and I am so lonely. I don't even have Boris to keep me company. Olivia (and Boris) will be here tomorrow hopefully. Still, no offense Olivia, they are just not who I am desperately itching to see right now. I'm such a loser I know, but I miss my boy like nobody's business. Natalie needs some cuddle time with someone who is not covered in fur.

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

iphone motherfuckers

I am currently blogging from my new fucking iphone. How totally sweet is that?

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Merry Christmas!

Yay for Christmas. Seriously. It is nice. This is my 20th, and I think I'm getting pretty good at it. So I am reflecting on those of my past. I realize now this would be more appropriate for my personal journal, since it's not very interesting, mostly just sentimental, but whatever.


Memories and such:
I've lived in the same house (same bedroom, actually) all my life, so Christmas morning was always the same. The only Christmas I remember before Gabe was old enough to be excited about it was when my mom made me this gorgeous princess dress with silk and pearls and it was awesome. I threw up all over it. Nathan said I was faking.
Oh, I also remember the Christmas I noticed Santa used the same wrapping paper as my mom. I was really excited, and rushed to inform her that Santa thought our house was so awesome, he wrapped all the presents for everyone in the whole world in our living room. From that point on, Santa's presents were left unwrapped.
After that, Christmases were the same. On Christmas Eve we'd have a big dinner, and then each kid got to open one present just to get a little excitement going. I'd fall asleep around 12 and wake up at like 4:30 or 5am and be completely unable to get back to bed. Gabe, four years younger than me, had already been up for an hour or two at that point, so I'd go in this bedroom and read him Christmas stories. It was a pretty sweet little system. We read for eternity (or like an hour) before starting to pace up and down the upstairs hallway. We were not under any circumstances allowed to take even one step downstairs. Eventually my parents would wake up (or be rudely woken up) and would go downstairs to "make coffee" i.e. play Santa. Then we had to wait at the top of the stairs for Nathan (five years older than me) to wake up. Then we'd get ready to run downstairs, but of course, Nathan just had to shower. Damn.
Finally, we would all make it downstairs, where the door to the living room (with tree) was closed, but stockings were in plain view. We'd spend ten minutes or so tearing through them. Usually only the top few inches had anything worthwhile in them, because beyond that, Santa got lazy and just filled them with oranges and walnuts. I'm pretty sure the walnuts I got when I was 4 are the same ones I got this morning.
Heading into the living room, Santa's presents were all laid out in a huge presentation on the couches, in three piles: dolls and pretty things, trains and trains and trains, and sports stuff. We'd indulge in that for a while, then we'd dig into the real presents with wrapping paper to rip off and stuff. SWEET.
Christmas was awesome.
I got a mini trampoline one year. That was great.


This year, (similar to the last few), we are somewhat less enthusiastic. Christmas Eve dinner last night with my mom and Grandmaman, a full night of sleep, a rude awakening from Gabe at about 7:15, heading downstairs for coffee (for real now) and breakfast (gotta get my grains in, you know) and then waiting for Grandmaman and Nathan to get here an hour or two later. The stockings are not thrilling, but sentimental as ever. There are no Santa presentations, and not too many presents to rip off paper from. Still, it smells like Christmas and the animals can feel the excitement and the happiness and my mom and Nathan don't yell at each other and Grandmaman gets creeped out and throws a little fit when we try to give her a back massage chair thing, which was exactly the reaction we were hoping for.

The sky is completely overcast. It's probably in the high sixties. Seventy according to weather.com. So no white Christmas, but I think it would just be weird to have snow on Christmas. That's just not how it's supposed to be, not when you've spent nineteen previous very green Christmases in Vero Beach, Florida.

Soon we'll go over to my dad's house and open presents there. It will be a huge deal. Dad and Jann love to spend money at Christmas time. I know what Gabe's getting, and he is so spoiled. Jann said she thinks my present is better, but I didn't ask for anything, so I really have no clue as to what it is that could top Gabe's (I can't say what it is because he's been known to read this). Then of course, because one huge meal isn't enough for two days, we will have a dinner of terror over there. I'm sure it will be delicious, but there's just so much of it. It's scary.

I really wish I could spend a part of today with Jon. It's just such a sentimental day for me (it kind of has to be or it would have no point, seeing as I couldn't give a shit about Jesus), it would be nice to be with him.

Also, meal plan 100% yesterday for anyone who cares! Yay me!

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

Those bastards...

They stole my mirror! Ok...well, kind of.

Fucking snow. Like, eight inches of snow on my car. Jon and I are brushing it off and he says to me, "hey, you know you have no mirror on your driver side door." I say, "what the fuck? It was there when I parked it here last night."

So now I'm angry.

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

NICK!

Hey everybody! Nick is coming to my school!!!!!!!!!

University of Chicago, are you fully prepared to contain TWO Vero-ites? Are you? ARE YOU? Do you even know the awesomeness of Nick and myself combined in one academic location?

Holy shit the world is sweet.

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Hey!

Hey! Vero kids! Well, anybody really. Did you know that haven't been in school for six weeks? Maybe. Do you know why? Probably not. You may have a guess, but you haven't been told explicitly. Well, it's complicated, and personal, and not necessarily for the entire world to know. But, chances are, if you care about me enough to wonder what's going on with me, I care about you more than you know. While my instinct says I should shut everything up and not tell anybody anything, my instinct has proven itself to be very, very shitty. So, if you ask me personally (via internets or phone or in person or whatever, just not on my blog) I am making the commitment to tell you what's up. I know that you will probably judge me for it for better or worse, so if you are very pleased with your image of me now, I would suggest not asking. You might gain a little respect for me, you might lose it all. I am trying really really hard to not care.

For the record, I am coming home (to Vero) Wednesday the 19th and staying until Friday the 28th. I miss you all terribly, but I'm incredibly nervous that you'll see me and think I'm sort of pathetic. So, I might try to avoid seeing you. In this case, you should come to my house and force me out of it, because I shouldn't care that you think I'm pathetic. I know I'm not.

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Sunday, December 9, 2007

On My Own

...pretending he's beside me. All alone, I walk with him till morning...

Just kidding. I just can't say those three words without bursting into song. But really though, I am on my own. Isabel moved out yesterday and Rachel just walked out the door. I have the apartment to myself until I decide to go home. Just me and Boris.

Speaking of Boris, I had to buy him food and litter, which meant going to the grocery store, which then meant no excuse to not do my own grocery shopping. So I'd like everyone to know that I successfully went grocery shopping, full on grocery shopping, not just CVS or Hyde Park Produce, and got everything I needed and got home and unpacked it all without having a panic attack. That may sound like not very much of an accomplishment to some of you, but screw you. It is a very big accomplishment. I'm in awe of myself.

And while we're wishing boys were here beside me, I might as well admit that I miss Jon. Don't tell him that, though. He'll think I'm clingy.

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Saturday, December 8, 2007

Some Awesome Things

Every wanted to see some awesome things online? Here are a few.


That's enough for now.

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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

It's December

Something I've learned by living in Chicago: Everything is pretty when covered in fresh snow.

The "fresh" is important there. Don't give me crappy old icy brownish yellow snow. That is gross. Nice fresh powder a few inches thick is where it's at. That crappy ass shack in the middle of the ghetto covered in graffiti is not going to look like a mansion on the north side after a little snow, but I guarantee you will wish you were an artist so that you could sit back and replicate the amazing quality of beauty something like that takes on after nature intervenes.

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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Sick

Natalie has strep throat. Mother fucker. I'd gone two or three years without getting it, but sure enough, it comes back with a vengeance. I knew yesterday. I woke up with a sore throat and by the time I tried (and failed) to go to bed, my whole body was clenched in pain. I went to the EDU this morning and just casually mentioned to one of the nursed that I had a sore throat and that I used to get strep, hoping they'd tell me it was a childhood illness and that I just had a sore throat, but they immediately sent me to get a culture and of course, it was positive. Lame. I hope they don't bitch at me for not following my meal plan tomorrow. Honestly, I can't eat. I mean, I just can't physically swallow.

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Sunday, December 2, 2007

It Hits Me Hard

I cannot adequately express how strange it is to watch all my friends write papers and study for finals while I sit here just...sitting here. And watch the UBallet's showing of Sur la Glace in jeans from a folding chair at the front of the studio watching someone else dance my part way better than I could have done.

I know I'm doing what's best for me. I know that. I keep telling myself that over and over. It's hard to get past feeling like I'm just missing something though. I feel a little empty. I feel really empty. I miss being normal, or at least only strange in a normal U of C way.

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