I think I can soon be free from Japanese. This is good because I just took my oral exam. Bad bad news. Baddest of news. Japanese in general makes me feel like an incompetent idiot, but compared to what I just said in my oral exam, I'm a fucking sensei in class.
Role play...
Natalie (in broken Japanese): Tanaka San, there is a test Wednesday. Would you like to study in the library tonight?
Sensei: Yes, let's study. What time?
Natalie: 8pm?
Sensei: At 8pm I have my part-time job. 8:30?
Natalie: ...
Sensei: 8:30 is that good?
Natalie: ...
Sensei: 8:30 is that good?
Natalie: (drops head into hands)
Sensei: 8:30 is that good?
Natalie: Oh, 8:30. Yes, that's good.

So that was great.

Anyway, here's the deal. Some idiot (and I don't know who) told me ASL (American Sign Language) doesn't count towards the linguistics requirement. So while I was signed up for it initially, I dropped it and switched to Japanese.

WELL motherfucker, it counts. For my major. I want to rewind so badly. I want to get rid of all the pain and tears (lots of tears) this class has brought. I want to learn ASL!

So, decision 95% final, I'm dropping Japanese spring quarter. Fuck it. I'll start ASL next year (because the sequence doesn't start mid-year) and that might mean conflicting times with other required classes for linguistics. Which means...I might not graduate on time. So fuck. But you know what, I took a year off and I switched majors. Is it soo big a deal if I graduate a quarter or two late? Don't tell me yes. I say no. Still haven't talked to my dad, who will have to pay for those quarters, but I'm pretty sure he's willing to give a little (ok a lot) extra for me to have some sort of peace of mind. I don't deserve the torture that is Japanese for any longer. After next Tuesday, this is overrrrr. Over with lots of Rs.

This is me:

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