It is 1:01pm as I begin writing this. I am waiting patiently for my rejection email from Teach for America. It will come today, but I just checked the website and it said results may not be posted (and therefore emails sent, I presume) until after 8pm.

Really? You're going to make me wait that long?

Yeah, I know I didn't get the job. I remember that day back in December. The legendary "TFA INTERVIEW DAY." I blew my chances. I think I'm actually well qualified to be a part of this program, but I know (yes I know) that I ruined any chance I had with that disastrous interview.

And yet...I wait by my computer for the email. Why? Is it because maybe, just maybe, it will say "Congratulations!" instead of what I know it will actually say? No. That can't be it. I think I just need closure. It's been months since I began the application process to TFA. It's time to accept that it's over, and I need someone besides the little elves in my head to tell me that for sure.

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